i wanto tel yu somthing
but i’m stupid
and scaredterrifiedfrightened
that the constraints of style
or the restraints of rhyme
or something… something… the truth…
will swirlsurfacerise up
this leviathan’s
massiveness beneath me
like a scream that casts a shadow
of a big mouth with no teeth
and ten thousand thrashing tongues
gulpswallowsopens up its throat
devours any sence of meenyng
likayehaytmisellphsewmmmutshsummtymz

i tattooed an anchor into my spine
and jumped right in
hungry for my word?
tummy grumbly for those little whisperswhimperspurrs?
youheardwesharedispoke
well here’s my dickshunaireeeee
CHOKE

CHOKE ,,, YOU FUCKING MONSTER
you sucking charybdis
mobydictatetake every inch of jonahandgeppeto
another blubbering idiot
another sufferingstuttering puppet
stuffing yourself with understanding you didn’t earn

can I catch you with a hook?
i’ll bait it with the verse
read it from the good book
and pray that I don’t slurmywordstogether
maneatsfisheatsworms eat maneatsfisheatsworms
eat maneatsworms eat maneatsworms
eat worms eat
worms eat
worms

This is my war with You!
i’ll kill you from the inside
and when I’m done
and you’ve puked me up
I’ll cook you up and swallow you whole.

we’lltaketurns.
letmegofirst.

gotta have a battleplan a stratagem a courseofaction
squeezing pebbles from my skin
maybe I’ll start smoking them again
or
maybe I’ll start focusing my thoughts on inner peace
instead of self-destruction

yourturnokayi’lllisten

i’m a debtor to two evils
one,
looks like silkflowerscandy
tastes like chalkaspirinsushi
and it’s a trap that tricks you into thinking you got out

the other,
i’m afraid to talk about

meagainokaynowlisten

through illness
and flashes of insight
I realize
my laptop
is my new nightlight